Fun Saturday

This weekend, really amazing day for my body and fitness. Why? Today mom took me to the skin center in my city. I think it's new place and it's pretty complete and amazing. Actually I'm going to post in this blog about my outfit that I wore today. But I didn't have a chance to take some pictures. So I can't post it. Just want to share about my unique outfit today. I will just give an imagination about it.
I used dark purple shirt, with sleveless outer made from wool (its color is brown). Also I used long black skirt. Not much unique right. But for shoes, I wore a pair of purple sneakers (it's my sister's). For hijab I used ready to use hijab with light green color and has some sparkling accessories in it. Yeah, actually it's not matching. Look weird. The reason is I need a simple hijab for doing some facial today. So i think it's working well.
Back to treatment time. Mom took me to that place. The name is "AESTHETICA Skin Center", which is located in KH Dahlan Street in Purworejo. To make it easier to find, it's in front of Columbia Furniture Store, and beside Platinum Computer Store. The place is really cozy. But the minus part is the receptionist not much welcoming and cheerful. Look gloomy and not friendly. Huh. But worry not! Because the service there is really amazing. Best facial I ever got. I chose whitening facial. Actually I want to choose acnes facial, but mom said that my acne isn't much, so I was interested to whiten my dark face.
First I had to take off my upper clothes and used "kemben". Ok. what will they do with my shoulders?
They gave me very nice massage. Really feel great. In my shoulders, back, neck, head, and the side of my head. It was the starting for my facial treatment. Really feel so rilex. And the other stuffs just ordinary facial, but still the best I ever got.
I almost breathless coz the sauna thing above my face, a step before they lighting my face and picked some comedoes. I held on my breath as long as I can. But I couldnt take it, so I took some air, it was really hot. My lungs felt so burned (that's too much lolx). I think the massager knew it and didn't put it on my nose too long.
Since then I was aware of being caught to hold my breath again. Worrying what surprising thing  that would be on my face. As usual facial, tears has to fall down when they start to pick, pinch, and press your comedoes out from your nose. That's really killing. I didn't scream, but my tears can't help to fall down. I even almost laugh to clean my own tears. It's much.
The end of it, I felt so clean, rilex, and of course sleepy. Mom said that the result is really bright and clean.Although there are some red spots because of the comedoes and little acnes. But I felt satisfied when they can find those comedoes in my forehead. I felt like "Yeah..that's it".
Mom also bought me night and morning cream, also face cleaner. She is really good. Thanx alot mom. The total of the cream and cleaner is Rp115.000,- and for facial Rp.60.000,-. Quite expensive for facial. But I think it's worth it and makes me want to come back again next month maybe. I read the brosure, alot of stuffs that they treat there for face especially. I'm interested with laser, Botox, and spa. But for laser and Botox it's in Jogja. Not available in here. Anyway for laser I didn't need it much. I still love my moles. Someone said it's sexy (lolx). For botox, I think I will do it after I'm above 30 years old and have some kids already. Hopefully I can get alot of money for that. Aamiin. For body spa it's available in Rp 800.000,-. Looks interesting but I still shy. Well I'm going to need it when I'm going to marry (lolx again).
Anyway it's fine here. Mom also told me that I look slimmer. That's why I do exercise powerfully this time. And lessen my eating fr today also. I feel also a little bit change in my tighs. It feels tighter. Eventhough it's not skinnier but it's nice though. Today is nice day. Except for having fight with..........

So Sick

What am I going to do? He just got accident and I was worrying, thinking bad things. He got mad and don't even accept my sorry. I can't say anything else. I just leave. He won't need me. He is angry. I should just leave him alone but can't. I wanna cry. I can't. People here. What am I going to do? I can't even swallow my saliva. I feel pain inside my chest. What am I going to do? He won't let me in. He kicked me out. He doesn't need me. He should has told me something. But I made him angry instead. I just a burden. He won't cry to me in this kind of situation. He will be here when he is feeling happy.I'm no longer needed anymore. What am I going to do? Tell me something...anything...I wanna cry but can't here. I wanna scream..it's too hurt inside.
If he needs me he will text me. I'm just someone who passes through not for staying. I guess it's why he treats me like I'm not part of his life.
i don't know, he needs sometime alone. Not with me. He needs doctor. Not me. Not me. Not me.

Applying Olive Oil for Daily Routine

This afternoon, I was just crawling in my bed. My mom saw me, and got mad. She said, in menstruation, a girl shouldn't sleep in noon. It gonna make my body stretch out. I opened my eyes directly. Afraid of becoming that way. She also asked me to use some of her olive oil stock to spread onto my body. I did do that thing daily, actually. When I was in Jakarta, even I applied that to my face, when my toner got used up. But since I moved in, back to my house. I'm kind of totally, deadly lazy, more lazy than a cow. I don't know why.
Ok then, since she reminded me to use some of the oil, I do that . I will just say olive oil as zaitun here, to make it easier to type. This oil has been known for centuries to all of women who want to have good skin and healthy body. Even in Al-Quran, it has its own surah, you know At-Tin which is Arab name for zaitun. So, I think, it is wise enough to include this amazing oil to my healthy list. But, actually I ate bad food today, because I feel not in the mood to eat anything or cook anything.I think my mom knew that, that's why she cooked already in early morning. Well forget it.
My mom has this zaitun, not zaitun for cooking. It is for spa or massaging.

The texture is really oily, but worry not, the more oily it is, the more moist our skin will be.Of course, it doesn't fit to use this oil if we have a plan to go out under the sunshine. So, I just used this oil when I really have free time at home. After having shower is good also or before we go to bed. But before, I also ever used other zaitun, from Mustika Ratu. The packaging is more adorable than this one. Texture of the oil is same, oily also (of course it's oil, which oil isn't oily?Oh yes the one which can be drank. S*nc*). But I don't know why the Mustika Ratu is better for myself. Maybe because the smell isn't too catchy like this one. Hmm..I still have a bottle full of it. But I left it. I don't know if it can be out of date or no.

Well, elegant is it?
But, whichever product that we use here is not the matter. Because, here I'm not doing any review to compare these two products. I just write about stuff that I'm going to use daily from now. In routine, not sometimes. I feel it's worth it.
I wanna stay young, I don't wanna have any freckles, neither wrinkles. Maybe I should eat again Natur E (how to write it?). Since I came back here, everything seems so paused for me.
I want also do some scrubbing to my face and put some masker like I did before. I would just do simple things from natural sources. Not chemical. I use night cream and I think it's chemical enough for me. So I don't want to add more chemical to my face. And for make up? I'm not ready yet to apply it to my face. Maybe I will be just very simple girl when it comes to the office.
Forget to add, I use zaitun for my face also. I use it with cotton and spread it to my face, I have this insanely dark spot which came from a big fatty acne, near my nose and left eye. Going to see if it could have some changing after I apply this. I know it's gonna take sometime. Maybe after 2 weeks. It's not problem for me. Because putting the zaitun on my face will also make my eyebrows and eyelashes prettier and healthier. Since I have bold eyebrows and long eyelashes, I should take a good care of it. I want to make my eyebrows have a good shape, truely like Lucy Hale's, but I think it needs a little effort like withdraw it with tweezer or dredging it out (this is scary). I don't want to. Not yet. So I left it alone. And for my eyelashes, it's a gift, I have long eyelashes, but it less bold though. I want it bold without even use mascara. Hmmm.. I haven't taken my eyelashes picture with mascara!!! It looks amazing. I was so excited to see my own eyes. How could all people think that I use fake eyelashes? It's real.OMG. Hmm.. I think I need to add mascara to my list. But I can't use it to office. Because people will also think I use fake eyelashes. Damn!
My writting going nowhere. It's my thing, when I write something I just couldn't focus. Afterall, be healthy and pretty!!!

Wednesday morning

This morning, my body smells so bad. Hahah..like it's important to write. I just finished my morning exercise. It's been a week and I feel nothing is changed.But, one thing is my appetite has gone for these couple days. Maybe it's because my menstruation cycle. Anyway, it's good for losing my appetite, since a week ago I was eating too much. Yeah, a week before menstruation is started, usually I get hungrier than ever. But nearly my menstruation or in the menstruation cycle, I lost it. After it's finished everything will go normally.
Yesterday I got a tips from my ehmm...cute 'friend'. He said to me to eat or combined cinnamons ( a tea spoon) into a water or any foods. He said it will help me to do diet. I read also on google, and it's true. Also lemon which is added into a water. But, here quite hard to find lemon. So i skip that one.I haven't tried his method yet, but I would like to try. Maybe it's simple thing. I'm still working on my rules. The minus point is, I'm still not able to chew foods 36 times. Always in 12th chewing, it goes down slowly to my throat. Should I take it up and chew it again? I ain't like a bird with 'tembolok'. Helloooooooo. It's really difficult. Because it's basically in our habit. Habit makes our organs work that way without we even think or order to. Besides, I never realized my chewing when I eat something. So, it just passed through the throat and gone.
Well, today I'm going to read some comics and download newest episod of PLL, season 4 episode 14. I ve been waiting this episode like 100 years ago. Finally, the day is coming.
So, by that it also means my holiday time will soon finished. Maybe after 2 months. But, I still got no information from my campus, ups not from my campus, I meant from my instantion about when will we start to work???But, I'm still enjoying my long holiday inside my room doing nothing and just chilling with myself.
I kind of think about someone out there. He is really understand me. Like totally understand me.Noone never have done that perfectly. Never thought also,it would be this long. For 2 years already. It's amazing for relationship like this. Noone could do this, yeah, maybe our commitment and trust, so it could possibly happens. But I feel it's on him. He never tried to let go. I do many times. Like all the time. But He never did. He ever did once. But I drawed him back. I could never lose him like that, not anymore.
He could read my mind, he could read my face. When I think about something, he would be just said "what the hell are you thinking? Don't think too much!" I don't even know what I was doing that time, so I just smiled. I feel like it will never work out with anybody else. I always push someone away. He already knew me, so he would keep staying. I don't know about anyother. They will leave and angry, maybe never want to try more.
He lives in sunshine country. Actually he is from the west side of mine, yew know. Ok, I always fall for guys from there. Hell why, I don't know. But he ain't like those guys. I used to fall for cute, handsome, almost look like actor, well those guys are shits. He isn't. He is just simple not that freakingly handsome but he is goodlooking, charming, and has very beautiful smile. OMG. He makes me fall in love again.
I really have plan this year or next year, if I got any chance, I will invite him to come here. For going there, seems like impossible things to do. But 2015 we will make it true, 2016 we are going to beat all the weakest things and prove to the world we could make it. And maybe 2017 it will come true. So long? Yeah it is. But who knows, within 2015 we could make it easier and faster. So 2016 I will officially changed my last name. Aamiin. Love u.

Old Stories From My Childhood Magazines

It's been a long time, since last time I wrote this blog. Missing you!
Since last Sunday, I was keeping myself busy with downloading and reading some old stuffs. Once upon a time, I had favourite magazine, named BOBO. I think it's everykids's favourite magazine in Indonesia. But, last time I read that, about 2013 edition, I felt disapointed too much. Because there, I could just found some silly advertisements which are made into a kid's story. Nothing fun in there anymore. I don't know, whether I'm too old to read that or the magazine lost it's precious contents.
So, I was just fooling around my internet searching. Good thing is my net speed is really amazing lately. So, the searching became more fantastic. I was looking for some old rugs of that magazine. About 80's or 90's edition. Yeah, that was the golden age of it. But I could find nothing. So I remember something. Once I read in 90's edition, there were some foreign comics inside of this. Like a bonus or something like that. It was like serial story. I found Pak Janggut! Wow.. from the name, I directly remembered the face of the character. Fat, short like a dwarf looking, has white long beard, sounds a bit like Santa Claus. He has magical bag. Like Doraemon. Well I remembered I ever had the part of the story. But that time, I never liked this kind of story. Why? Because it's in series packaging. I could not afford to subscribe whole of the magazine. So I just bought this when mom got money. Damn pathetic childhood. But I'm happy I could remember every great moment of it. Sometimes, when my mom asked me to go to Baledono market (a market which I should call an almarhum market because it was burnt down and nothing left of it...sad), she took me to a stall which sold old books and magazines. She bought me a bind of old Bobo, maybe early 90's edition. Wow that was a big joy I ever had. Kids nowadays will never relate the feeling I had that time. Full story, old classics fairy tales were there, besides it's cheap..hmm mom's old trick and it's never gets old.
Well, come back to old stories. Yesterday, I really used my memories to remember the things I read. I already got all full series of Pak Janggut (yeay!). So i just used some silly keywords to search on Google. Finally got some titles like, Prajurit Timah (this story really epic!!!), Emas untuk Misha (a marathon runner girl who has skin disease and always use weird yellow latex instead of clothes), and many more (actually I can't remember). But a lot of stories that I never read or heard that I downloaded also. But I don't really like Deni Manusia Ikan, so I skipped it. Never read this though. I remember an old story setting, which I remembered was a girl put a letter in the brick fence, ugh I can't remember. And Kucing dan Tikus, I remembered it, it was about two girls who always had fight in everything. Well i forgot again the next thing. Well, my searching will still continue. It's really nice to get the feeling from childhood back. I don't really do great things since I'm in long holiday. But at least it makes me happy. It's enough for now I think. I'm tired.

Places I Want to Go..

As a human living, we may wishing and hoping, even dreaming. I have a dream long time ago. I wanna go around my country, Indonesia. Out from this island (that I've lived for almost 23 years), Java Island. I never been to Bali. Yeah, so sad. Maybe that will be my next destiny before I have plan to work in region out of Java island. I have dream of going out of this island and maybe Insha Allah it will come true on next year 2015 when I work. Even if I don't know where, I hope I'm going to be in good place that will support me to be a better one, I hope also wherever place I will be, I can help to make people or instantion there better. Aamiin. I have no clue where I'm going to be but I'm sure He will choose me the best one. His choice never been wrong to me, as long as I'm living in this tiny world.
Besides that, in elementary school, I ever got some jokes with friends. In Atlas book, has some pictures about 7 Wonders of the World. There got many pictures, (Borobudur didn't count for our destiny), Great Wall China chosen by Rini my friend, Taj Mahal in India chosen by Indri, Pisa Tower chosen by Wati, and I got Eiffel Tower in Paris, French. Yes, that time maybe it was just some random jokes. We didn't realize how things are developing faster within 10 years. We didn't know that in our fingers, we could connect to other people in other side of the world. We might be made that as a joke, but who knows about future. The impossible things in present can be easily come up to the surface of the possible things in the future, or maybe it will be a usual/common things.
I'm speaking this things, why? Because I have a dream, that someday I can visit places that I want to be. Can I elaborate those things? I even had a dream about going in these places.
1.Mekkah & Madinnah
maybe sound so religious, but it's not. Everytime I see the pictures of it in sajadah or painting in the rich people's houses, I feel like it's very wondeful place, full of light and sacred. I haven't thought about some religious views because I was a little girl. Just like, is this place even real and looks like this pictures? Silly questions, because it's even more better than the pictures. I ever had real dream going there with mom and family, I was already on the plane, ready to go. Yeah, I hope it will come true.
2.Eiffel Tower, Paris, French
Yes, it was part of my jokes. I always wonder what it feels like to go there. Using coats, jeans, and boots with shawl, hat , and black glasses. The night view, the light, the breeze. Ohhh, someday I will go there. I never had this in my dream actually but I always want this moment to be real.
3.Japan
I'm 90's kid. Of course I know Sailormoon, Doraemon, Sinchan, Ninja Hatori, Chibi Maruko Chan, etc. With those cartoons, which grown up person from the 90's who doesn't want to go to Japan? Raise your fingers, I wanna see. Giving back the memory of childhood by feeling the real life in Japan, is a dream of kids in 80's and 90's I think. I used to think about how the circumstance in Nobita's house, I want to be Nobita's friend, I want to have Doraemon. It's a dream. But my friend from elementary school has made it there. See?? Nothing is impossible. I had dream there. Talking with Japan man, seeing some girls or kids in uniform, and there I'm also with my family. I don't know I study there or what. It feels so real if I remember the scene right now.
4. Australia
It's the western country which is very near from Indonesia. I had a dream once, using a car I go there underneath the sea. I even talked in English to some people there. All  I saw are blonde people. I saw the tag name of the street but I couldn't remember. Well it was fantastic, I was in Melbourne maybe. I want to go there someday.
Of course there are still a lot of places I want to go like whole of European countries.But those are the places that I've thought about now. We never know that in our talking or joking, it could be our wishing that has been heard by angels. So, be careful of what you're saying or wishing. We never know  what we are thinking as a joke that we think couldnt be true, suddenly be granted without you even wishing.

Happy weekend!

SET THE RULES FOR A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE

I just saw myself in the mirror. Oh, noooooo... tighs are still shaking the fat, ass also bumping, arms, stomach alsooooo. I feel a little desperate, actually. Almost a week and I don't see any differences in my shape. Maybe it needs more than a week to see the changes after doing some aerobic exercise. Or I need to set my daily eat schedule? Yes, eventhough I do exercise everymorning everyday (because I'm in very long holiday), I still can't control my foods. I still eat junk food, junk food here as I live in village now are instant noodles and "gorengan". But heyyyyy don't you underestimate it, they are very delicious foods, simple, cheap, and yummy. Of course! that's why they are called junk food. What am I going to do?
I know that I haven't done the maximum effort for decreasing my weight. I still eat a lot, still sleep too much, and being a lazy cow. But at least I have made a move to myself, by doing exercise everyday in the morning for aboout 30minutes non-stop. That's quite progress for me. Knowing that I'm a lazy cow and can't hardly doing anything.
Here I am, trying to convince myself that I can make my body looks better in a good shape and healthier.I have to set some rules to myself. Well, I'm here sounding too much idealism. But, if I don't force myself to care about my own then who else does? My best motivation is pants. I wanna use pants without look like I have big tighs and ass. The other is Ashley Benson. She is really great, I wanna have shape like hers. In Spring Breakers movie (I haven't watched it) she looks so amazing with those bikinis. She has same height as mine (I already told ya) but of course different weight. But she has quite tendency to be a fat one. Because in her series PLL, she showed some changes. But who knows, in the movie, she needed to gain some of her weight because she was too skinny for the movie. Anyway, I love her curvy waist. I don't like skinny one.
But hey,I got shocking picture from her. She looks a bit fatty here,

That's the prove that she ain't born with perfect figure. She must do some workout though. Looks like she just or almost go for gym. Her workout routine are gym, Pilates, even boxing. Well I don't know much about Pilate and boxing. And I have no money to spend on gym center. So i would like to make my own plate.
1. Wake up early, praying, cooking as usual, eating some morning snacks
2. Doing exercise  for 30 minutes before having breakfast
3. Eating breakfast, this may takes a lot of foods but stay in control
4. Shower and then use this time for doing some stuffs
5. In lunch time eat as needed don't be too much drink much water before eating
6. Don't forget to try to chew 36 times
7. Don't sleep in the noon
8. Dinner before 7pm
9. Sleep before 10pm
Well, that's easy rules. I may want to add biking and sit up but it's for later if I can do these simple rules. Be happy and healthy!