My New Vocab (PART 1)

I am in the middle of watching Supernatural Season 9 Episode 9, I know it's little bit too late to watch this episode, because I feel this show is getting boring and going anywhere without good point. The reason I keep watching it is because those Winchester brothers :D
But here, I will write some new vocabs from this show, I will do it more often since in my speaking exercise I don't have much new words to talk to, so I think I really need to renew it here. I will try to do it because sometimes I get new vocabs or cool idioms from movie that I watched. Especially from Supernatural, Dean always says new idioms that I think it's really awesome. Here it is

discreet : careful
convey : tell someone about something
summit : top, peak
enormous : big
presumable : can be guessed
"one beer, he is hammered" : "just one beer and he is already drunk"
" Level with me" : "Just say it to me"
befoul : dirtying
serpent : dragon, snake
solitude : loneliness, "My solitude is getting tedious"
tedious : boring
envisioned : dreamed
handpicked : choosed carefully
"He's been all over the map" : " He is been anywhere"
indecipherable : not readable
dupe : victim of deceit
devastated : broken
squatter : wild occupant
fidelity : loyalty
slay : kill

Anger Management (Part 2)

Needn't long time to find about anger management. But need long time to understand all of that. I got some amazing writting about "Why You are Your Own Worst Enemy?". Found this on elitedaily's page. Kind of great article about why ourselves is worst enemy to us. The connection between my anger management here is simply because this worst enemy is the reason why we can be so temper and not thankful for everything we have. By knowing ourselves, maybe we can understand better how to control the bad mind that has been going on around our heads. From that I'm going to rewrite this with my own words about what "not-to do list" to be friend with outselves.

• Don't put some goals to someone 

We shouldn't focus our goals on such a relationship to someone. Why? Because how many times people have let you down? Once or twice? I don't think so. Just set some goals for youself about anything you like to do. Something fun, useful, and develop yourself. I do put a goal on someone. Each time I remember, I feel it eats me alive. It feels like absorbs a lot of attention and it makes me couldn't focus on something real and better.

• Please All and You'll please None

This words really have a deep meaning. We can't do what everyone or society need us to do. Like all of them. We can't really enjoy ourlives with that. Just do whatever is good to you, of course something which is not give bad impact for others, and have a good time with that. Just be yourself and happy.

• Don't think About If for Future Too Much

This IF is really bad disturbance for our movements. I am myself often have this big IF. Like If I ..... will I .....?? Too many consideration and doubt will just make us stepping back. Once we set our plans for future, just get along with it. Find some ways to make it happens. Stop having imagination like we are psychic and judging God's plan. It's really bad to have negative thought about what He is planning to do with you. Just pray and give Him good impression in positive way. He will not let you down even once. Never. I never felt He ever put me in disappointment. I got disappointment by my own deeds and thoughts. That's really bad!

• Stop Generalizing Others

This one thing happens a lot in our  lives. One little person annoyed you, doesn't mean other person in the same gender, age, occupation, tribe, language, or even in the similar faces are the same attitude. Girls maybe like to do this thing. Once they got betrayed by a guy. When they meet other guy and hurt them, they will start say this, "Guys are all the same". Well, don't be too surprised, they don't mean any by this words. Just think it girls, if guys are the same why on earth you try to date different person once in a month? Like you're doing chemo???

• Stop being so Proudy because it is Jealousy

It's really something that darken my heart. For sure? Sometimes Facebook page gives us inspirations but sometimes it gives us some heart disease (not liver or cardio disease IYKWIM). We saw some good moments happens to our friends's lifes. We feel envy, it is jealousy. Some friends making good stuffs by handmade, we saw it and think "Who is going to care about those ugly hairclips?". This proudy feeling also called jealousy, because we know we couldn't do better than those persons and yet we still blame them. It's not healthy I know. But I always do that. Sometimes seeing other happy lives makes us do bad hopes. It is real jealousy and it's the worst. Example is I see a friend's trip abroad with the new family. And I start to stalk on the timeline, see the gaps of sad status and laugh on it like "see her life isn't that good and yet she has gone abroad for honeymoon. what a waste?". Really bad! Just do some useful activities to stay yourself away from this habit.
Don't waste your imagination to make Excuses

Anger Management (Part 1)

Lately, I realized some bad habits that's been happening with me. It's not really new. But I just feel it worse now. I was a really patient, easy going, and like to ignore the bad things that people's saying about me. But I felt something went wrong when I started to act rude whenever my friend put jokes on me or saying something that I don't like. I often get angry or saying something harsh to them. After that I feel really bad and regret it.
I thought maybe it's because I was in bad situation because that time I was in last semester of my study. So I thought I was just going through some bad times. And I feel it's normal. But after that's over, I back to home and it's getting terrible. I mean officially I have nothing to worry about, nothing's going on that make me in the lowest part of my life or having bad times. But I get mad more often over the simple things. Until it made my mom said "Why do you get so temper  after you finished your school?"
Yeah, Can't say that I don't feel that. I do feel that and it's really bugging me too much. Everytime I feel someone talk loud or scream, I feel really mad. It is like I want to come to them and say "Shut the ** up". Or when someone complaining about something too much or too often, it makes my ears burned and it's raising my emotion in the bad level. Moreover when someone shout or angry toward me. I don't know. I feel like I want to throw something on the floor and make some noises.
I'm having a problem with someone too. Pretty intense and difficult. Everytime we chat, we just throw each others bad words, it's really irritating me alot. I don't want to hurt anybody either. But the problem is really hard to explain. So I couldn't share it here or to anyone. This kind of matter makes my day even worse.
I do think, I should get over this kind of attitude. I think I need to manage it well, because soon I'm going to start my work. And I need to get rid of this kind of attitude.
Since now, I have a new homework in my home. About how to stay calm and control my anger well.
I don't know how yet. I'm still reading some sources. It's gonna be harder than keeping my work out program. But it's worth to try. I will keep this updated as partial posts. So just be ready for the next posts, my deary blog. Keep calm and enjoy the life Allah gives to you. Be thankful! Alhamdulillah....

Don't use phrases that include :
always ("You always do that")
never (You never listen to me)
should or shouldn't ("You should do what I want" or "You shouldn't be on the roads")
must or mustn't ("I must be on time", or "I mustn't be late")
not fair

My Program and How to Handle Other's Judgement

Heyaaaa.....it's been so long for me not to write here anymore. Same issues like the previous post actually. It has been the third week for my new hobby. Hobby? Great that I got one now. Before I was talking about my aerobic exercise to decrease my weight. Now, I have intention to shape my tumy and tighs. Because it looks bad. I'm inspired by Jen Selter. She is so happening in twitter or instagram (which I'm not using) as Butt-Goddess. Even Rihanna follows her and envy for her great butt. Yes, I admit it, she has big butt but it is hot. Not big fat ass like that. It makes me thinking. Hey, I have big ass too. I always complain about how big it is. I'm not realized that maybe girls out there working so hard to develop their asses. Why can't I look after it?? It's a gift. Damn! I feel so wasted too much. I do have the body but I never give a damn about to have a shape. Such a fool. All I need to do is control, handle, and worked out.
I have to control the food that enter my tummy. Last night I ate late, it's such a sin for me now to eat that late. I ate noodles (ugh), bread, and drink soda. OMG. I wanna cry after I ate those. Soon after I ate, I did some short exercise. Until I felt tired. I don't want to spoil my exercise. I work hard enough lately.
So this morning I decided not to eat breakfast and just do aerobic and exercise for my tummy and tighs. It hurts alot actually, but I have to handle it. I have to keep work out until I get the shape that I want. If I got the shape, I would try to maintain it well. By still doing exercise and control my foods.
It needs only commitment. I heard my friends talked alot of diet, don't eat this that, and really concern about the food that they eat. But they avoid doing sport or exercise. Maybe their weight could decrease fast, but it won't last long I know. When they stop their commitment, they eat evenmore. Us girls always wonder how a guy, our friend can lose so much weight. I saw how he worked out. He never use lift. He use stairs instead. It's really a bold move. All he needs to is commitment and stop spoil out to his friends that he does diet. WHY?
Here I am going to write how to stay in our commitment of keeping the shape of our body and our relationship to others.
1.First of all, stop talking about your program before you even start it.
You can just do your work out or gym without telling "hy girls, I'm on diet you want to join me?"
Don't ever say that. You could just ask your friends to join you but not show off like that. "Hey, how about this weekend we go to gym or doing some aerobic exercise together. My body needs some movements. Will you join me?"
2. Bring up friends who are really have same motivation and intention.
Friends are really needed for giving support to us. By giving motivation once when our feeling gets lose to do our commitment is important. So when we are going to do some of work out or diet, ask friends that you already know that they have big motivation not friends who are too much talking and no action. Because they will drag you backward far from your commitment. Just look around and talk to your each friends about to go jogging in the morningor doing gym. See if they canceled it or not. If you and your friends could get along for more than a week, then it is your motivator friends.
3.Don't hang out too often with friends who have "big belly"
Sounds rude? It doesn't mean like that. I mean here, don't hang out with friends who are like to eat alot anytime anywhere. It's fine if we go hang out to the mall on weekend. But what if your friends ask you to stop in some junkfoods places or grabbing some ice cream everytime you go out? I don't think it's great idea. Once or second time in a week it's fine. But everytime when you walk home from office? Beside it's bad for your purse, it's bad for your health. Try to maximize your eating at home not going out. But don't punish yourself by not to go at all. We need to be happy right?
4. Ignore all the bad judgements from others
When some of people around you, know what you're doing. They will start to judge. It's a must. They are going to say "Hey you don't seem to lose so much weight? Why don't you just stop and join us!", "You're not look good at all in that pants. You said you have worked out. It doesn't look that way to me.", "You shouldn't eat that you are on diet.Or that also don't", "I see you're not going to have dinner. You're on diet."
Oh please those judgy big mouths are always open for you. So be ready.The safest thing is don't ever show them that you have your own food journal or exercise program inside your room. Just do simple exercise not aerobic one. And eat normally and don't refuse when your friends ask you to buy foods in night. Just walk them out at least it's good for your legs. But don't buy food because you already eat before night.
Maybe those are things that comes in mind. Some are happening to m some are happening to my friends. Sometimes I become the judgy person too. It's really annoying actually. But anyway be healthy and hottie!!!!!!

Working Out to Get Flat and Slim Stomach

I am sooo motivated to have a good body. Because yesterday I was so happy that some of pants are fit again for me, also my small tank top that I thought is impossible to wear, now it fits me perfectly. Maybe my weight isn’t coming down that much like what you think it is. But I think I lose some useless fat which had been buried for such a long time. At least they are burned little by a little. But as I told you in previous posts, I’m still looking for a way to make my stomach and tighs slimmer. So today I looked for the way.

I found a post which is posted by a friend on facebook about getting slimmer tummy. Wow, exactly what I wanted to see. I saw the picture which has many quotes and tips. I’m going to post it here in my own words.

1.      Exercise approximately 30-60 minutes per-day. (Done)

2.      Eat small meals often and don’t skip meals (Less carbohydrate Done)

3.      Eat fruits and vegetables with every meal (Done)

4.      Weigh yourself daily (Not yet)

5.      Keep a food journal with you always (In process of making journal)

6.      Remove all unhealthy snacks (I don’t have snacks, so Done)

7.      Store only healthy foods and snacks (Done, fruits, coconut biscuits, no noodles in a week)

8.      Schedule physical activities (Done)

9.      Eat at home often (always Done)

10.  Don’t use serving bowl (I don’t know what is this)

11.  Fill up healthy foods before dessert (I never had dessert)

12.  Make active choices for everyday tasks (I’m lazy)

13.  Don’t eat while watching TV (Done)

14.  Vary activities (not yet)

15.  Never eat from containers (Done)

16.  De-Stres before eating (don’t stress? Why should I?)

17.  Start with high fiber breakfast (not yet)

18.  Buy and use pedometer (not yet)

19.  Walk 30 minutes everyday (not yet)

20.  Plan a week's groceries (I will)

21.  Have a craving plan (oh sure)

22.  Reward yourself with non foods (If I ate too much I will regret and have to add more exercise)

23.  Use a weight loss online buddy ( I don’t get it)

24.  Wear blue (it will press appetite, sure I don’t like blue that’s why I always hungry)

25.  Throw out large plates (Done)

26.  Throw out large clothes (No actually, now I reuse my small clothes)

27.  Use mirror to measure (I use some body measure)

28.  Read labels on food product (Never)

29.  Avoid butter (I don’t eat much of it)

30.  Increase calcium (like calcium milk or what?)

I already did some of them, and it works enough for me. Beside doing those things, I have a video about shaping tummy and lower part of my body. It is soooooooo difficult, I admit. Some Pilate work out also included here. I just can do 2 or 3 moves and that wasn’t completed. This work out is about 10 minutes. I think I will try a little bit when I have some spare time, this exercise also good for me if I moved back to Jakarta. Needn’t much place and don’t make some noises in my bedroom. Be slimmer and hotter!

My Daily Plan If I Go Back to Jakarta

I ve been thinking about “Will I come back to my old habit if I came back to Jakarta?”

My lifestyle there was really bad an unhealthy. After pray in the morning I slept again. Woke up very late. No breakfast and changed it into “brunch” instead, with highly amount of portion. Sleep a lot in afternoon. Eat in the late night with also much foods which have too much calories and not healthy. Of course because slept in noon, I can’t sleep at night so I slept above 1 am. Think about it. Noone of it good at all. No wonder, after spending 4 years there, I could gain more than 5kg now. My homework  at home is to fix this huge mistake. Very hard you know!

It makes me thinking, if I go back there? My work hard here will be useless. I will be like that anymore. It got me so frustrated. If I worked, I would have no time to exercise. This time right now, I’m thinking how to stay healthy with hot figure as my resolution in early 2014.

Here, I set some activities in daily life when I start to work later. I MUST  do it. No excuses!

·         Wake up early about 3.15am for qiyamullail *tahajud*. I wish I can do this.

·         After that preparing some foods to bring for lunch in office and breakfast. Simple food is needed, so I’m going to make some simple menu from now.

·         Maybe about 4am-4.30am before praying doing some simple exercises or just washing clothes and then take a bath.

·         About 5am preparing to go to office. Since there we only got 1 bathroom for 7 people so have to be smart and diligent to wake up early just for booking the bathroom.

·         Go straight to office before 6am.

·         Maybe go home about 7pm. Eating a little. Then go shower or preparing foods for tomorrow.

·         Have to sleep before 11pm. And must cook rice before sleep.

Well I got some ideas for breakfast or lunch.

1.      Omellete veggie

2 eggs with salt,cabbage, chillies, onions, or sausage/meatballs, etc (put it in one place in night and place in refri so the next morning just crack some eggs and fry)

2.      Garlic Bread

Put some margarine in one place with mashed garlic and small chopped celery (in the night). In the morning just put those mix margarine into a pan and put some slice of breads into it and fry. So I don’t have to wash the pan for making these two foods.

Those are fast and simple foods for lunch. But maybe I can feel lazy to bring those all. So, I would just fry some eggs and put it in between 2 slice of bread and make some easy salads. I know I will be lazy that time and going to bring bread or milk to work. That will be enough I think.  For exercise maybe I can’t do more often anymore. So in Saturday and Sunday, I have to do jogging as I did a year ago and in afternoon I can have much sleeping as I need to. Don’t forget to buy some veggies in traditional market there for a week. Some green veggies, chillies, garlic, onions, rice, eggs, noodles, or fruits maybe.

Well finally I made this rule for myself. Looking forward to make it real in future. Be healthy and hot!