This time tonight, as my daddy is playing some silly game on pc, with me also fooling around blogging some random post, we talked (even we were talking back to back, yes we are busy in our own pc).
He was telling me about some of his friends who ever got bad move on making some business. They are police same like my dad. But you know as government worker, salary which they get each month couldn't cover their daily tertiary needs . I mean, yeah that's enough of money that they could get as government worker, but it could just reach enough bar. If they want to get new serie of cars for them to ride on, they need more effort than being government's bitch (I'm sorry for bad language).
For making this any shorter, dad told me they did some business, according to him it's many kind of business. One that he told, is growing some investment on land. I didn't really get it how it's going. But I understand that the problem is on the land. The first owner kinda have some problem with the bank and land that he uses for investment is kinda in the conflict state. Thing is I didn't really make it sense is, why didn't he take some curiosity? Knowing that the man who sold the land, has bad reputation. Well who knows about that? Dad also doesn't understand why. This problem eats him alive. He lost 600 million rupiahs for that. Not small amount of money for sure. If my dad did that I don't know, maybe I wouldn't sit here and writting this blog, I could have been anywhere to help him get his money back. This problem is still on going. I hope his friend can figure it out soon.
Another dad's friend also had this kinda problem. Even worse until they had to be imprisoned, the most tragic part is dad had duty to take them to the jail. I don't even imagine how it feels. So, dad told me why he doesn't want to make some business out of his job. He is really dedicated his life to his amazing occupation. Yes, he is very honest, loyal, and value to his job. Job like that of course need strong principe.
Once I ever thought, how if when I work, I do some business aside of my real job. I do alot about that kind of thought. Just thought. I have never made it real. I ever asked parents to buy me some goats when I had money. But then they didn't want to. Look like I got an offspring for both of my parents. They don't like do things like business or side job. Mom said, she couldn't do that because it will end up to loss. Dad also has this same thought. Yeah, I guess they just made for each other.
I saw some other friends doing this that, while having long holiday. I actually want also. Want to move my feet to feel some job and get the fresh air. But then I stop myself and think, this holiday won't back more. I know it's a chance for me to do something. But I ask again myself, are you ready to leave your family? You won't get alot of time like what you're having right now. I know I'm sounded so childish here, like cuddling under mom's armpit. But it's me enjoying the moment. I hope when I do something to them, like serving them to make food, dinner, making coffee, Allah will give me more grace for my future. Hope so.
Once again dad told me that life is not about money, enough for many people sometimes is not enough. They want more in this life. I really know how my parents work start from zero of their life. I feel it. How they build this home, how they collect money penny by penny to buy old car, of course they use some debt in bank. But it is safe because they got it cut from their salary in each month. We are living in pretty simple life. Some other friends with same parent's occupation I saw that time when I was so young, they had very good life. Being famous, going out school with car, having new mobile phone, dress up nicely. That time I was just looking like some silly girl. I heard once a friend asked to another friends, "Why is she living so simple, that A girl looks wealthy, their father policeman right?". "Yeah, maybe her (my) dad position is lower than that A girl", another replied. I heard it, and I was "OK". Since I was kid I'm never ever having that rich girl lifestyle of living. Not every stuffs that I wanted they could give me I know. But I knew my place, that they were in hard place for settling new home, etc,etc.
I was raised in very simple family. I'm really be thankful for that. I never joined some cool girl group. Because I know I couldn't be placed with them. I never having what's "the IN" stuffs like they are using. I don't even want it. I hope that My Glorious God out there could hear me. I want no fancy lifestyle like that. I want that anything I need and want for my family, could be granted. Just that. I'm no proud of what I'm now. I m non talented-average girl next door kind of girl. So...please. I don't want a lot of money if it couldnt make me happy and share it to family and anyone who needs. But money is fine too for now, lolx.
By the way....things get little bit too overwhelmed tonight. I don't wanna end up on some past review, so I gotta end it. I hope I can do some video tutorials or video learning of English. Hope so. Bye
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